Where oh where has my inner goddess gone?

I think I've been lost in space or lost in the outer world more like it.
My days seem to be passing in a whirlwind of events and happenings that have me becoming more disengaged from myself with each passing week.
I feel like I am just going through the motions of being a spiritual being and not really connecting truly with the Goddess.
I know I'm Wiccan.
I know I am true to the Goddess.
I know I love her.
I tell people I do.
I continue to teach people about Her.
And I know she is all around me and within me.
OR is it that I am so used to Her , so used to feeling her within and around me that it's something I don't even have to think about any more?
IT just IS
SHE just IS
But just in case I will self prescribe -
More meditation
More ritual
More gratitude
More singing to her
More dancing for her
AND
Dear Goddess , I thank you, on behalf of this parched land, for the amazing rain over the last 2 days.
Blessed Be

Womens Circle chant

The women they are circling, healing and growing
The women they are circling, round and round the moon
Goddess carry me, your child I will always be
Goddess carry me home to the moon.

Universal wisdom???

I don't get it. I dropped my corporate work days down to 2 to make space for my massage business to grow and it seems to have come to a halt instead (I sound like a whining child)
On the one hand I believe the universe is forcing me to rest up before I start a new venture next month, but on the other I wonder if this is how it's always going to be.
"Oh ye of little faith!!!! Have faith" I hear you screaming at me.
Trust .
Believe .
Go within .
All things I need to learn.
Nourish .
Nurture .
Be strong of heart .
Be true to self .
All things I need to do.
See the beauty.
See the love.
See the heart.
Be it.
Do it.
See it.
Live it.
Have the courage.
Have the strength.
Have the faith.
Be love.
Be heart.
Be strong.
Be courageous.
Be true.
Be real.
Be the Goddess within and without.
Shine, Twinkle and Sparkle.

JOY TO THE WORLD

Blinked and missed it!!!!!!!

Why is it I have such good intentions for doing a full on full moon ritual and when the time comes blink , it's gone and then I spend the next month impatient for her return only to have it happen again.
OR
Does sleeping with the curtains open and having her shining down on me while I sleep and make lurv count?
Does sitting on the porch in my sisters rocker, crying because I miss her so much and having HER shining down on me count?
Does singing my songs to HER , smiling up at HER with outstretched arms count?
Does leaving bowls of water and crystals out for HER to bless with HER energy count?
Does telling HER I love HER and miss HER and thanking HER for HER healing energy count?
Weeel maybe I didn't blink as long as I thought.

obsessed

I am obsessed with that durn song!!!!!!!!!
CaN'T STOP PLAYING IT.
Can't stop singing it.
"What a marvellous night for a moondance......................."

THE GODDESSES LURV JASMINE

It's been so long since I smelt the heady perfume of Jasmine that when I walked through my front gate the other night the scent stopped me in my tracks. I thought Ooooh that's new! what is it? before I realised the Jasmine was out! I was overwhelmed by memories of long hot days and nights, buzzing bees and flies and mozzies(not always pleasant memories), bright summery clothes, long icy drinks, bbq's with friends and family BUT most of all drawing down the moon on a warm balmy night , with sprigs of jasmine in my hair , surrounded by it's scent. It always evokes distant memories of red tent days and nights, sharing your blood with the moon and the red earth. Sharing your joys and sorrows with the women of your tribe. Jasmines heady fragrance all around you as you make love under the stars and the moon, honoring the Goddess with this beautiful act of love. Being at one with her and your love for your man.

Ooooh now I can't wait til the next full moon!! YOW!!

Healing Circles

I lurv coming home from a healing circle. I am always overflowing with creativity. The words seem to have a mind of their own and flow, splash and tumble from the waterfall of my mind. I love chanting, whenever I have to remember something I make it into a chant. So here's what evolved from last nights circle.................
"You are my tribe
You are my soul
You taught me to see
What I can be
You are my tribe
You are my soul
You taught me to be free
Taught me to be me."
AND
"I am she
I am the one
The one who will set you free
Free from yourself
Free from the world of emptiness"

Dear Diary...........

Planning my birthday ritual, a womens circle, I want everyone to tell a piece of my herstory and in turn I will offer a piece of theirherstory back. Lots of drumming and singing and laughing. It should be truly magickal. If only the one person I want there the most could be there. I s'pose I'll have to accept her spirit presence instead of the physical. It's not fair, still, after all these years that i miss her so much and i'm still angry that she's not here. And I still don't understand why she was taken from us so prematurely. and why do I still cry every day. and sometimes life sucks especially when it doesn't turn out the way you want it to. and why are teenage girls so damn moody, and....... I could go on forever but my naturally optimistic nature has already kicked in and switched moods. What a marvellous night for a moondance.........

Just feelin' silly

Lover of mine, friend so divine, feelin' so fine, oops it's a bottle of wine.

Blessings

Blessings all around me
Blessings abound in me
Blessings in my day and night
Blessings all through my life
I am so blessed
I ams o blessed

Living Chant

Let the life I live stand for me
Let the life I live stand for me
When I'm lying in my grave and there's nothing left to say
Let the life I live stand for me

An angels message from beyond

I have been touched by an angel.
Her gossamer wings have eased my troubled brow and soothed my troubled mind.
Her songs of compassion and healing have rippled through my muscles , travelled through my blood, to calm my troubled soul, to mend my fractured heart.
I have been touched by an angel.
Sent to me by my sister, who is always watching me from above.
I have been touched by an angel.
She was bringing me your love.

Chant of the moment

My sister the moon sings her song to my womb , dancing the circle of life. (unfortunately I can't take credit for writing this one, but I love it soooooo much, it calls to my very essence)

Night of the Dark Moon

The night of the Dark Moon meditation promised to be an interesting journey for the women of our circle. As I read the meditation even I felt uncomfortable and it was soon evident that so did some of the women for I could hear a few gentle snores, which signalled to me, that rather than meet their shadow side they had chosen to drift off into an innocent slumber of ignorance. Those that chose to take the journey were happy to acknowledge the pain that meeting their shadow side had caused and the others, well maybe another time........ And me? I love & acknowledge the Dark Mother, just as I love all her other faces, for they are part of me and I am part of her & as we become one I cherish my journey and ask What more?....

I am the tree
I am the earth
I go back to the place of my birth
Back to the earth
Back to the fire
Back to the heart of my desire
Earth, air, fire and water
Into your arms for I am your daughter
Earth, air, fire and water
Crone, mother, maiden, daughter

Song to the moon

O Mother moon, I seek your wisdom
O Mother moon, I seek your power
O Mother moon, I seek your knowledge
On this night , in this hour

WOMEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We are the women
We are the word
We are the women
We wanna be heard
We'll tell your story
We'll spread the word
We'll tell your story
It's gotta be heard
Cos we are the women
The wisdom, the women, the wisdom

PROTECTION

I am the power from within. I am the power from without. Every day and every night keep me safe and protected with your light.

Honesty

How are people meant to know you if you don't show them who you truly are?
Show them your soul.